On a bad day...

Life seems very complicated . Wonder if it was a good idea, after all, to have ventured into a new career at the age of 30.

Rewind a few years... life was all nerve and grit.A mad rush to accomplish. Any new challenge taken up was completed. And, completed with finesse!! Of course, I was never 'confidence' personfied but still, things just seemed more manageable then.Fast forward to today...For the past three hours I've been trying to comprehend mobile network concepts, distributed architectures and what not...Progress happens but at extra snail pace.

Rewind a few hours...Got up late. Slept 7 hours and still got up feeling groggy. Dragged through the process of putting the clothes into the washer, brushing my teeth and making tea. Wished amma was here to make tea and I could just plonk myself on the sofa and read the newspaper. Just about halfway through the lunch making process, the stove sputtered, the flame did a jig for a few seconds, and went bust. Gas over!!

Rewind a few days...feeling mighty lonely in the house. Staying alone is fun at times. Everyone needs private space and alone time. But, imposed lonliness? It grates on your nerves...It's like hearing a saw blade on a metal surface. He's gone abroad on a project. The first two days were fun. No cooking three meals, no picking up messy trails of stinking socks and limp T shirts, no seemingly unresolvable fights over why things have to be put back to their assigned places and why old newspapers have to be neatly stacked... But then, within a few days things get mighty lonely...

Fast forward to today...I am trying to think logically. Maybe its just the lonliness, the gas, the technology concepts...that make it feel like doomsday. Oughta feel better tommorrow...So see you later then...in a better frame of mind, of course!